If you can't tell..

I officially suck at blogging. I can't keep up with it. I think of it often, but alas, I am too lazy or busy, or maybe both, to actually type in blogger.com on my web browser. I'm still at a 70lb loss. Which is great. I've been maintaining my weight. That's hard to do and I know I wouldn't be able to if I didn't continue to workout. I do 3 30 minutes sessions with Scott every week and then an hour of cardio of my own every day. I'm still working on losing weight, I recently got a little more motivated so hopefully I will get to my next goal of 157lbs by this summer. That will mark my 100lb loss. I will absolutely celebrate and maybe cry a little the day I reach that goal. The day I hit a triple digit loss. It will be ah-fucking-mazing. Absolutely so. Scott decided to slow down my routine with him and work on nothing but fat burn again. Doing this routine has been the most successful for me in my weight loss journey. This is how I have lost the last 48lbs. Now I only have about 30 til my next goal and I am excited to get there. I don't have much more to update. So, goodbye...for now!

Wow

I really didn't realize how long it had been since I've posted on this blog. Lazy on my part I suppose. All is well in my neck of the woods. I'm still losing, or I should say, trying to lose weight. I'm up to 70lbs now. Go me! So I sit right about 187lbs right now. This leave 30lbs until I hit my 100lb milestone! That's kind of exciting! Now I just need to find my healthy eating motivation again. I have been lacking in that department big time! I haven't been able to keep my water intake up either. I think I am bored with every single thing that i know to eat that isn't horrible for me! I'm craving kraft mac n cheese like no other. I want mcDonalds, I want burger king. I have to admit that sometimes I let my cravings win. I know my plateau is all my own fault. I try to motivate myself and give myself little pushes to do things right but it just isn't working right now. It hasn't been for a couple months. I really need to buck up and talk to Scott about it. I just don't want to be judged. I know he won't be mad and won't judge me but I have this overwhelming fear that he will be pissed at me. I don't like it when people are pissed at me. It bothers me like no other. So, That's all I can say for now. I promise to keep blogging at least once a week.