First day down

Let me just tell y'all that my diet is so boring right now. I would making it interesting if I knew how. I can't use the seasoning I normally would to make things taste good. So for now I'm eating just to fuel my body and nothing else. All the enjoyment has been taken out of my food.

Honestly, this is exactly what I need. Since Scott is putting all this work into helping me, I don't want to disappoint him. I actually succeeded in eating 6 times yesterday, which is a biggianthuge point for me. Most of the time I feed my kids and forget to feed myself. It was really hard to see the boys and josh eating super delicious looking and smelling burritos for dinner last night.

I will not make my family eat the way I am. Especially the boys, their diet can handle it. They don't have a life altering disease. I must take care of myself.

This isn't just for my benefit, it's for my family too. I want to be there for my boys. I want to have more babies. Losing weight and getting healthier are priority in the equation. I don't want to have to have a liver transplant and be stuck on antirejection meds for the rest of my life. No bueno!!

Well, cheers to the beginning of the end of Fatty Liver Disease. You will die and I will defeat you. You bastard disease!!!

Body Blueprinting

Ladies and gents, this is my new weight loss adventure. I am Scott's guinea pig for this.

Basically it's a REALLY specific eating plan and we're targeting my main areas that I need to lose weight in.

It is not easy, not one bit. There's extremely minimal carb and a lot of protein and greens. Here's what my 6 day meal plan is:

Breakfast:
3oz of turkey breast
1/2 grapefruit or 1/2c mxd berries

Mid morning snack:
3oz tuna
1c of greens

Lunch:
2oz fish
1/2 med yam
1c greens

afternoon snack:
3oz tuna
1c greens

Dinner:
2oz fish
1/2 med yam
1c greens

there's also an evening snack which is optional, we'll see how I feel in the evening.

evening snack:
2oz turkey
1c greens

Yes, I know this looks like I am eating a lot of the same things, that's because I am.

Wait for the best part, oooo wait for it..


No salt and/or condiments!!!!

The end goal is for me to lose the weight and be happy and healthy. I am fairly happy and I'm pretty close to not having FLD anymore. I go see my GI on the 16th of Aug for a follow up with b/w and what not. So hopefully we'll get good news at that appointment or shortly afterwards.

I will struggle and I will have a hard time keeping on track but I know I can do it!!

Dread

I realize that I am having a really hard time breaking old eating habits. I'm suppose to be keeping a food journal for my nutritionist and I fail big time.

I am dreading the weigh in this week. I was reallysuperfreakingbad with my diet this weekend and I don't want to face the music if I gained weight. Seriously Lindsey, why can't you get your shit together?

We'll see I guess.

25lbs

That's where I am at right now. I was hoping it would be more by now but I'll take what I can get honestly. I can't be disappointed because I am losing the weight, just slowly.

I am seeing a new nutritionist in hopes that we can get on the same book and the same page. Yea, the last one was ok but she just wasn't doing it for me. This one actually helped me with a meal plan and seeing me weekly to hold me more accountable. The plus side. It only costs 20$. Thats actually only a one time fee too. Woot!

I'll keep y'all updated on my progress.

I'm a slacker

I got a nasty chest cold, I didn't go to the gym for 7 days. I felt so gross not working out and I was a major crabass.

Scott asked if I wanted to do my body fat and measurements yesterday and I said no. I wasn't quite ready for it. Which is the total truth. I was so afraid that I would have gained weight, because honestly I didn't eat all that great when I was sick.

on a super good note, we're MOVING. Wooo I am so flucking excited.

Alright that's all the energy I have for my blog today. I iz one tired girl.

A competition

My fav torture artist is talking about having a contest for his clients!!! I really want to do this. I am an extremely competitive person by nature and competition motivates me.

I am asking questions and trying to lean him towards following through with it. I told him if he does the competition than I will do it and I will win. I will do everything humanly possible to win it. I am not a sore loser but I would probably be a little disappointed if I didn't walk away the winner.

I've lost almost 20lbs so far. I have a goal of reach 200lbs then we'll set another one. I am hoping to be able to wear bikini bottoms and a tank next summer and not have to worry about a flabby tummy. Well, maybe next summer I'll be pregnant, but who knows. We'll cross that bridge when we get there.

Right now I have a nasty chest cold and I am not happy about it, whatsoever!!!!

So be it!

I now have something new to lose weight for

I have come to the realization that I am not done having kids. I really want another one. I have a fierce desire for it. I think this one might be worse than when I wanted to start TTC with Caleb.

Josh and I talked about it yesterday. He definitely said he wants another one and he wants to be done having kids by the time he's 30. He's 28 now.

I want to be at a healthy weight before we start TTC again. Lord knows how long it'll take or if I am going to have to go back on the Clomid bandwagon. I hope not but I'm not setting any special expectations for myself either. Wyatt was concieved without meds, I TTC with him for about 4-5 months. Yeah, Caleb took 14 months with 3 rounds of Clomid before he came into existence. So we'll see how things go. I am not sure when we'll start but I'm hoping within the next 6-8 months.

Well there's my confession for now. I really want another baby. Like bad.