Damn it!!!!

I fell off the wagon and I don't know how to pick myself up and get back to it. Everything feels like a giant failure right now. I can't decide what is causing it, but whatever it is needs to go away. I tried doing my fish diet again and i failed epically. i've eaten more bread then I dare admit. My willpower is completely gone. I could say that it doesn't feel like I get the support I need at home, someone to push me and tell me I'm doing a great job. Which is true, josh isn't the most supportive person in the world. He doesn't know how to express it and it makes my heart hurt. God Damn just tell me how great i'm doing and that i can do it. you have faith in me. I feel like I am failing myself. :/ I shouldn't be so critical of myself but I can't help it. I have always been my own worst enemy. FUUUCCCCK! I just want a hidey hole I can crawl into and bawl my eyes out. Tell me I'm amazing, tell me how proud you are of me, please support me and help me.